2021 is almost here

2020 has not been kind to any of us. In the beginning of 2020, I was so sure that 2020 was actually 2019 latching onto the new year, but no. No year can be blamed for 2020. We lost people to COVID-19 and to other things. There was a wildifire in Australia in the beginning of the year! Does anyone remember that? But 2020 also gave us a few good things. Parasite won the best film for Oscar. What a joy that was! Dolly Parton donated a million dollars to a university for COVID-19 vaccine research when other celebrities were singing “Imagine.” Imagine that! James McAvoy was under the radar but that didn’t stop him from campaigning for masks for NHS and donating. He possibly saved a lot of people with that. He was also a delight on his Instagram page. He and other delightful famous people created a sci-fi series called Sci-Fisolation and it was epic! No joke. He was also a part of audio series of The Sandman by Neil Gaiman where he played Morphius. I cannot make this shit up. He came through this year! It was nice to know that all my favourite celebrities were a delight this year. I was not sure about Alexander Skarsgard because he was in Sweden and Sweden hadn’t take quarantine actions then I saw a photo of him by a fan and man, that guy was under quarantine. LOL He was still handsome obviously, but he was also less… polished perhaps. Just like James McAvoy.

As you can guess, my life in 2020 was basically following people on Instagram and stalking them online. Our office started working from home on March and since March, I’ve been working from home. So far, we have no plans to going back to the office and honestly, it’s okay. Yes, working from home is exhausting and you can never really switch off but it beats having COVID-19. I live with my parents (I know, still!). So during summer, we went to our summer house near to Istanbul and stayed there for a little over a month. It was the highlight of 2020 for me. My lunch break was going to the beach and swim for half an hour. 🙂

Last week, I lost a friend. Not to COVID-19 but to cancer. We had a fight last year, it was bad and it was my fault. Because I was a shitty friend to a good friend who had cancer. Then we patched things up partly because of my obstinacy but mostly because of her forgiveness. Lastly, another friend told me. We waited for three days to visit him because she was in intensive care. We wanted to say good bye. But she never got out of ICU. She died on Christmas Eve. We had met during our MA. So I told one of our professors who has obviously been our favourite from the get-go. He was also very sad about it. I wrote a small paragraph to be shared so our professor could share with everyone else in our MA program. So anyone else who wanted to get in touch, could get in touch (and they did, bless them). During our e-mailing, our professor told me that the word to describe my friend was feisty (in English) and told me to look the word up in a dictionary.

Cambridge’s description of feisty:

Collins’s description of feisty:

And those descriptions were spot-on my friend. My feisty friend: Sumru Aydın. She wanted to be a novelist, she wanted to travel the world, she wanted to love a man and call him husband, she wanted to have kids. Instead, she left her mark in all of us. Her favourite television show was Sex and the City. But instead of Carrie (even though Sumru was also a writer), she identified with Samantha. She also loved expressing herself, was politically incorrect, ride-or-die for her friends, loved sex and wasn’t ashamed of it. She also fought me hard but with kindness. Because she wanted me to be my best self. She also didn’t think that I was a novelist material because I didn’t write. That pissed me off so hard for years! But now, I only smile. Because thanks to her, I started writing again. In English and in Turkish. She’d be proud of this.

Since she died, I wasn’t able to talk about her or confront my feelings. But hey, I wrote almost half a page just now. That’s something, right?

Hopefully, my next post will be more cheerful and possibly about my book goals for 2021.

This or That Book Tag! / AND FIRST POST!

This is my first post ever. So why not kick things off with a bookish meme?! Becky aka crooksbooks aka the first person who followed me on this page posted a meme on her page. You should check her page and follow her while you’re at it. She seems super friendly!

The Rules:
Mention the creator of the tag (Ayunda @ Tea and Paperbacks)
Thank the blogger who tagged you!
Tag other people to do the tag and spread the love!

Reading on the couch or on the bed?

Bed. Or subway. I read to wake up or read to go to sleep. There’s no inbetween for me. LOL

Sweet or Salty snacks while reading?

I don’t eat while reading. BUT if I have to choose, salty snacks all the way. Get me a packet of potato chips and I’m good to go. Or an apple or an orange? I honestly don’t know.

Trilogies or Quartets?

Sometimes more the merrier. But trilogies are the perfect lenghth when it comes to sequels BUT if the author is Leigh Bardugo and the books are about Six of Crows, don’t leave it at a duology and give me everything that you got for them.

First person or Third person POV?

Third person POV. When it’s first person, you can feel more involved in the story but if it’s third person POV, the information is generally more. And I’m all for information when reading a book. LOL

Night or Morning reader?

Morning if I’m not towards the end of a book. Night is there are few pages left. If I finish a book during the day, that usually leads to a book hangover for me. But if it’s night, my brain can cleanse it and I can start a new book the next day.

Libraries or bookstores?

Online bookstores, sadly. I used to always visit university library when I was in school. It was truly the best. I don’t have a local library to go to. Even if there were, I couldn’t go this year.

Books that make you laugh or make you cry?


I love reading Kurt Vonnegut because he makes me laugh or smile. But last year, I read A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara and I cried so hard. BUT I’d still recommend.

Black or White book covers?

Black because white books tend to get dirty more easily. LOL

Character driven or plot driven?

Again, why don’t we have both? If a story is only character-driven, I get bored. If a story is only plot-driven, then I can’t get dwell into the story as much as I would like to. So, both. Absolutely both.

I’m not going to tag anyone since I don’t know anyone as of yet. Feel free to consider yourself tagged if you somehow found yourself on my blog. 🙂